I’m rarely at a loss for words, at least in written form, for today I find myself on a plateau of some sort. Yesterday, from about 3 o’clock on was torture, in some sort of nebulous, nondescript way . I was hungry but I didn’t want to eat. I didn’t want anymore of what was on the okay list, and I really didn’t want what was on the not okay list. I woke up this morning thinking maybe I just should not eat at all today, but I’m putting one foot in front of the other, one sip or mouthful at a time and moving on.
Life after all is all about change and moving on. Nothing eve remains the same. If it does, I don’t know about you, but I get really antsy or depressed. It seems we were designed to change and grow. From the midlife point on, I feel as though I’ve done a life time of growing – emotionally and spiritually. Things I wanted so desperately to understand and incorporate into my life at a very young age, are now seeming to make sense and fall in place.
I sometimes feel lately as if I was handed a gift when I was born, but didn’t have a clue what to do with it, or what it meant; a beautiful, warm and sunny orb in the palm of my hand, that I tossed hither and yon like a hot potato, and too often put in a box out of sight. It lives and breathes with me a little more every day. I carry it with me close to my heart and often stand in awe of it. I know if I allow it to be…if I let it warm and guide me…it will lead me where I need to go.
I believe we are all born with such a gift. Our task in life is simply to bring it out into the open and share its warmth with others.
I hope you will allow your golden orb to shine light and warmth into your world today.
“The journey of becoming conscious is not the capacity to get an angel to show up on your doorstep. The journey is to live the mystery and do it with spiritual elegance. To live the mystery and make choices while in the mystery that reflect that you have faith in a divine hand operating behind this all the time.” Caroline Myss, Anatomy of the Spirit
Day #1 – I’m a Coward
Day #2 – The Morning after the Night Before
Day #3 – There are No Words
Day #4 – Coming Full Circle
Day #5 & #6 – Hyped Up and Nowhere to Go
Day #7 – The Body, Mind, Spirit Connection